You have been with me on this journey for a few years now. You have watched me cry, get angry, frustrated or sometimes just silently grieve through the pain of infertility. Your strength and your reassurance have been graciously received, even if I have not always told you so. I am comforted by the knowledge that you are always there… Read more →
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Living for the Rainbow Baby
The last three years has certainly been an eye-opener for me. I had honestly thought that when that time was right, we would start that conception journey and motherhood would quickly follow. Wrong! But my complete naïvety was very apparent in that thinking. Life really does not have any guarantees. Nonetheless, I had planned, waited, and calculated… Read more →
Finding Reasons to Celebrate
Amidst all the angst and frustration of dealing with infertility, there are moments where I need to stop, check myself and remember the good things in my life. It is so easy to get caught up in the heartache and desperation of a dream that you cannot seem to fulfill. It would be easy to blame others, and become… Read more →
Everyone is Talking about Mark Zuckerberg
This week I read several articles featuring Mark Zuckerberg (CEO and founder of Facebook). He and his wife are pregnant! However, they have also experienced the loss and anguish of multiple miscarriages. He bravely made a very public statement about their losses and the pain that they went through on their fertility journey. It is wonderful to hear that… Read more →
Advice to Myself
Now reaching my fourth year of trying to conceive and still no child to show for it. This has been an incredibly heart-breaking journey, one which I am starting to feel that we will never reach the destination we had hoped for. I look around and many of my friends and family now have toddlers, even school-age children, and I still wait… Read more →
Getting Some Perspective
This week I’m on the Cornish Coast, literally overlooking the sea. This has been a long awaited summer holiday for me. It is a chance to just step away from the havoc and reality of life, taking some time away from it all; getting some perspective. I don’t know about anyone else, but at times it feels as though I’m… Read more →
How to kill a conversation…
There is a certain kind of awkwardness that sometimes arises in conversations when asked whether I have children – a family. ‘I am married’, is my standard response, hoping this closes off further enquiry. Nonetheless, many will continue to probe, asking: ‘kids?’ Of course there is nothing truly intrusive with this question. A simple ‘no’ and moving onto a new… Read more →
Stopping the Race
This week has been a little rougher than most, testing my fragility and my ultimate quest to be optimistic. It made me reflect on how I feel about my own situation and my strength to keep going. As a women struggling with fertility, I have moments where I struggle to breathe with the thought that my quest to become a mother may never… Read more →
Defying my Limitations
Many women and men are facing infertility every day. In fact Resolve (the National Infertility Organisation) quote that 7.4 million women (11.9%) have received fertility treatments, and that 1 in 8 couples in the US have trouble getting pregnant or sustaining a pregnancy. So, essentially there are women all around us facing daily roadblocks, hurdles and obstacles and potentially being… Read more →
My Philosophy … My Memoir
Today is an incredibly special day for me! Today is the official launch date of my first published work. This was my personal journal, something that I kept by my side during one of the most difficult times in my life. It carries my intimate story of loss, grief and hope, and I want to share it with you. Why?… Read more →